As hubby comes to the end of his training ( he will be finished in 3 months), deployment is becoming more and more real. When we were dating in college, I knew it was inevitable. We had some practice time with field training, ASBC, and IFS. Of course, hubs wasn't in any danger like one is at war overseas. Right now, its not at the forefront of my mind....and really, it shouldn't be. We still have time. But every once in awhile, it hits me that its getting closer and closer every day. I know how a model military wife is supposed to handle deployments and being alone, but I have no idea what my real reaction will be when it is upon me. I'm pretty sure crying is unavoidable. It's just hard to try to emotionally prepare yourself for something like this...in fact, the more I think about it, the more I think being prepared for it isn't really possible. It happens and when it does, you deal with it the best that you can.
It's hard for me to think about this enough to even really write what I'm feeling without crying. Not only will I have to continue a normal life and existence without my best friend, but knowing (or not knowing) if he is safe, or doing well. I find comfort, however, in knowing how hard my husband has worked the whole time he's been on active duty and in training. He has studied so hard and for so long to ensure that he succeeds in his mission and comes home to me. I know that he will do his best and he is an excellent pilot. He has lots of support at home and I am praying that whoever he flies with is as good, if not better, than he is. That's all I can do, really. Pray.
That's something that will also be a hard pill to swallow.....
I can't imagine having that dark cloud looming and functioning. You will have love and support here to help you through deployment. I love you!
ReplyDeleteLove you!! I was told the key is to make friends as soon as you hit your first station and keep busy!!! We will be here for you!! I feel guilty knowing one day I will have to leave Kit behind...but we don't get to pick. It will be hard for both of you but it will definately make the relationship stronger. We love you and will support you! You can always come stay with us in Ohio ;)
ReplyDeleteIt's probably a good thing to try and prepare yourself for a deployment, even if you aren't sure when it's coming. But, having said that, know this: you will make it. Have faith in yourself that you'll be able to put one foot in front of the other day in and day out to get through it for as long as you'll have to. I promise. I didn't think I could do it, either.
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