The time we've been dreading is finally coming up....quick.
I never really forgot the feelings of anxiety and sadness that comes with an impending deployment. Now they are all flooding back in full force. Maybe even worse this time with Elise involved. So many things will be different this go around....and yet so many things are exactly the same.
Tears. Panic attacks. Emotions running high. Clingy-ness. Running around like crazy trying to complete our family's pre-deployment checklist and honey-do's.
I'm doing ok so far. Only one panic attack in the books. Only two tearful breakdowns. Though many nights clinging to my husband and many prolonged hugs and kisses. Many days of "who cares if the laundry's done....let's go do something as a family". Lots of Daddy/daughter time. Weekends spent with grandparents. Preparing for one awful day and six months of trying to stay busy and keep loneliness at bay.
I think we are all just ready to get this over with. If you're experiencing a similar situation, my heart goes out to you and yours. We can and we will get through this.
“Do not urge me to leave you or to return from following you. For where you go I will go, and where you lodge I will lodge. Your people shall be my people, and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there will I be buried. May the LORD do so to me and more also if anything but death parts me from you."
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