Falls Creek

So I just got home from Falls Creek. Which I learned is the largest protestant camp in the world! Crazy!

So the way I feel about Falls Creek is awfully complicated....and I really don't think anyone understands this but my husband. It was a tough week in that aspect. Hard to reconcile what I believe now with what this place teaches.... what I've known my whole life.

There is one thing I felt all over again while I was there. My husband was made JUST for me. As unsure as I am about all things supernatural....I have come to the conclusion that I believe there is a god and he made my husband specifically to match my soul. I am grateful for this everyday. He is incredibly supportive (to any and all of the crazy ideas that blow through my head on a daily basis), he is grateful and appreciative of the fact that I have sacrificed starting my career to follow him wherever he may go, he is patient, kind, and everything else that 1 Corinthians 13 says perfect love should be.

After having a conversation with said husband about all this, I find comfort in knowing what I have always known: the greatest of these is love. god is love. love is god. So simple and yet so complicated at the same time.

I also find comfort in the fact that religion, whatever it may mean to me, is not a dealbreaker. When I was growing up, I was taught that it was. If you couldn't find someone who was a southern baptist, just like you, then you were destined to have an unhappy marriage that God would never approve of. So naturally, talking about hubby about all this made me a little nervous.

"Unconditional love means I don't care if you come home a Buddhist, I still love you and would never leave you"

This is what he said to me.

I did have to let go of a lot of anger and bitterness about my feelings towards religion...and I finally did. I feel like I am ready to take my husband's hand and move on to whatever comes our way next. Completely confident that the love we have for each other knows no bounds and can take anything life throws its way :) talk about peace!