I know why I'm doing this and I'm glad. It's what we agreed on from the getgo. But I still get frustrated with my lack of usefulness.
My days now consist of:
waking and walking the dog
eating breakfast
job/house hunting online
catching up with mom/friends via texting
working out
shower
run errands
lunch
figure out dinner plans and start doing it
laundry
cleaning
dinner
walk
tv with hubby/reading
bed
See what I mean? Luckily, I am going to Falls Creek with my old church group in a week or so. That will keep me busy. Then its our trip to Memphis. What concerns me is what happens after that! I'm seriously considering working at a retail store in the mall simply to help pass time. Even though I hate retail with every fiber of my being, its probably the easiest job to score right now and I could use a discount.
Applying for teaching positions seems futile from so far away. I have pretty much resigned myself to the fact that it wont happen until I get there. Which is fine with me....I just wish the time would go by quicker. I want to be at home somewhere so badly I dream about it every night. I want a group of friends to invite over for bbq's and to have girls' nights with.
Ugh and what frustrates me the most about all of this....hearing myself bitch about it in my head. I need a change of pace and attitude....and a JOB
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