Mother's Day

So this Sunday I'll be celebrating my first official Mother's Day. I'm excited to be spending it with my two favorite people, my husband and daughter, at my favorite pancake house in Dallas! We are going out of town for my best friends wedding tomorrow so after breakfast we will come back home and hopefully just relax all together before my husband leaves for a week. 

This Mother's Day actually has me thinking about my own mother. 

We've had a pretty typical mother/daughter relationship. Complete with huge blowout fights mostly due to me dating the wrong boy. So cliche I know! 

It took awhile for our relationship to get back on track after that. We disagree on many things including politics and religion. But now she's the one person besides my husband and daughter that I talk to every single day and I can't imagine my life without her. Growing up, you always hear "one day you'll have your own child and you'll understand". Another cliche. This one is very very true. Sure my mom and I will definitely differ some on the parenting front, but there are things every mother does for her child. Especially in those early years. 

Knowing that its almost physically painful to see your child hurt or be in pain, wanting to be the one who brings peace and comfort to your child when they need it, feeling very proud to be the one giving your child nourishment, choking back tears every time they do something to be proud of. These are things I've already experienced in just four months. 

I've even called my mom crying a few times because I can't always do these things for my baby. I don't always know why she's crying or how to make it stop. I can't stop her from feeling pain sometimes and I can't prevent her from feeling scared all the time. I know that these experiences are simply part of life for her and they won't stop and they will eventually be incredibly beneficial for her. That does not change the fact that its still hard to watch. I can already tell this parenting thing doesn't get easier and it is not for the faint of heart. 

The point is, I now realize my mom did these things for me. She felt those things for me and still does. Motherhood has been an incredibly humbling experience. It definitely caused me to write a tear inducing note in my Mother's Day card to her this year. No thank you will ever cut it, I'm afraid. 

But at least now I know, all she wants in return, is my happiness. Just knowing I'm ok and happy, is all a mother really wants for her child. It's all I want to see in Elise right now. 

I'd like to blog about my first Mother's Day after I've had it. Unfortunately, like I said, my husband is going tdy for about 10 days so I may or may not be able to write it! But I will try! This is going to be a day I always want to remember. I've waited a long time for it and as long as my husband and daughter are there, there's no way it can't be amazing.