I've always felt that when something bad happens to you...you are either someone who shares your sorrows with friends and family for comfort and relief....or you're not. I've always been one who finds comfort in talking things through with people who care about me. Or, more importantly, know what I've been through.
This particular tragedy I've experienced is one that pushes in me to be let free. Feels like a poison that needs to be sucked out...but for the life of me I can't seem to put what happened into my own words. I feel like I should though....get it out... I feel like it would be a healthy release for me and if my story could do for someone else what the following story did for me...it would be worth it. Unfortunately I'm not a very good writer and my emotions tend to get the best of me. I found this blog while searching for an emotional outlet. It's so similar to my thought process and experience that I thought it would be better to share this than attempt to create my own. So here it is....and just as the reader said....I don't want pity or to cause worry in anyone. Just reading someone else's experience tonight has helped me so much, and I'd like to pass on the favor.
http://www.alittleblueberry.com/2011/01/and-just-like-that-she-was-gone.html
“Do not urge me to leave you or to return from following you. For where you go I will go, and where you lodge I will lodge. Your people shall be my people, and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there will I be buried. May the LORD do so to me and more also if anything but death parts me from you."
Prayers Bethany. It is always helpful to find others who understand. That is how I have survived. And I say survived because there were days when I struggled to get out of bed and face the day.
ReplyDeleteThe worst thing is that it doesn't "go away". You just have to learn to adapt to being who you were before, and merging that with who you are now. You learn to get through each day. Nothing worth having is ever easy. Thank you for sharing. I know it's not easy to be part of that 25%.
ReplyDeleteThis happened to me, too. I had three, two very early and one at 12 weeks. They were all awful. Please know that you are not alone, and that wondering if you did something wrong not only isn't true, but will only make the hurt worse. The best things you can do for yourself now are take care of yourself, and when you are ready, find someone--anyone--that you can talk to about it. Don't carry the burden alone.
ReplyDeleteBethany, I'm so sorry you had to experience this. I've gone through it twice in the last 13 months, so I know what it's like. If you ever have any questions or need someone to talk to, shoot me a message on Facebook.
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Hugs, hugs, hugs, hugs. Thanks for the share, I wrote it to help others, glad that it has given you a voice to express what you're feeling to all. It helps to share, you are not alone. :)
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